Monday, June 30, 2008

I can choose

There is so much about my fate that I cannot control, but other things do fall under my jurisdiction. There are certain lottery tickets I can buy, thereby increasing my odds of finding contentment. I can decide how I spend my time, whom I interact with, whom I share my body and life and money and energy with. I can select what I eat and read and study. I can choose how I’m going to regard unfortunate circumstances in my life-whether I will see them as curses or opportunities (and on the occasions when I can’t rise to the most optimistic viewpoint, because I’m feeling too damn sorry for myself, I can choose to keep trying to change my outlook). I can choose my words and the tone of voice in which I speak to others. And most of all, I can choose my thoughts. (Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert)

I read this and like a child discovering their feet for first time, I was shocked and amazed and giddy, yes giddy, I can choose. I'm 47 and I just realized this June 30, 2008.

This is where it begins.